It's easy to see how selfish everyone else is when they don't pay as much attention to you as you think they should.

How Come

I can't tell the difference between the free world and a living Hell?

--Ray LaMontagne

Photos

Rubix cube, anyone?

This was on a blog I follow on Tumblr.
It's in Boise on Ustick close to Cloverdale.

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Shopping

I am so sick of shopping for the mission. 

Don't get me wrong, I love getting all this new stuff, 

like shirts, skirts, and even a brand new pair of Toms!

Whaaat!

But seriously. I'm tired of it.

I don't like shopping when I actually am obligated to get something specific. 

Except grocery shopping, that's pretty much my favorite thing to do. 

Midnight Winco runs are the best. 

Spencer said something to me today that actually helped with my reluctant attitude.

"It's just a mission." He meant it so to say that I wouldn't be gone that long

but it honestly was the best thing I've heard in such a long time. 

I think it's because everyone is making such a big deal about me going. 

It is a big deal.

I'm a big deal.

But to hear "It's just a mission." Like it's just another step in the staircase of life.

Like it's no big deal at all was so comforting, so relaxing.

And exactly what I needed to hear.

But, more shopping awaits. Hopefully tomorrow will be the last of it!

I don't really wanna go.

Moustache Bash 2011

Ain't no rest for the wicked by Cage the elephant

About time, TB!

Doritos Taco

Brilliant.

And another lazy day...

My life has been lazy since I moved back out to Juniper. If I got paid for being on Facebook and Tumblr, I would be a rich b* right now. I would also have a lot of overtime. 

Brad and I went into Burley today and got grain. 

But that only took a few hours. 

We played "Over to Top" (you know, the movie with Sylvester Stalone as an arm wrestling truck driver who suddenly has to take care of his preppy son who he's never met before...).

I got some movies from the RedBox. 

"Soul Surfer" and "Winter in Wartime"

I hope they're good. 

I'll be a little disappointed if the war one isn't, anyway. I don't have really high hopes for the other.

I'm going to the temple tomorrow...I honestly have not felt so right about something, as far as I can remember, in my life.

I'm no longer on the fence about the mission, but I'm still hugging it. At least I know that my decision to go to the temple is right.

I've been missing Allison really bad these last few days...to the point of bawling my eyes out, honestly.

I want to spend the rest of my life with her and Andrew. 

But, I know, life must go on. 

I'm not done with them though, that's for sure.

We're growing old together. I'll be sure of that.

I'm seriously debating moving to Italy. 

Sometime in my life. I just need to have money to get there.

Also, knowledge of the language would be helpful...

We'll cross that bridge when we come to it.

Here are a couple pictures I found today:

Boob nom

Tommy and the High Pilots

The Limit. ♥

And so another school is in session.

I honestly miss school so much. I miss learning, I miss the classroom setting, I miss having something to do that will make me think! I want so bad just to be in school right now!

What a morning...

Walking down the steps, feeling good because it only took me half an hour to get ready for church. Shower and all. And I. Looked. Good. 

I was wearing my 4 inch stilettos, (I haven't worn heels in months it seems like) walking down the steps outside, my heel catches on the edge of the step and down I go!

Scraped my arm, thigh and ankle, and fell into the bush. 

Worst part? 

I FREAKING SCUFFED MY FAVORITE SHOES!

(You know, the black shiny ones with the zebra stripe accent) 

Lame.  

I even left skid marks on the step from my shoe. 

It was tragic.

Now my ankle is stinging, [it got the worst of it, blood and all]

It's one of those "sad movie, all by myself, with popcorn and a blankie" kind of nights. Except I move to strike out popcorn and add pizza and ice cream instead.

More little pics

Thought this was cute.

Pretty sure

I'm about to go make some no-bakes. Wish Andrew were here.

I've got this little bother.

He asked me to come to one of his football games before I left on my mission. 

I promised him I would and told him I would be there for his homecoming game.

Guess who's not gonna be there for the homecoming game next week?

I feel like a really bad sister and an even worse friend. 

I know he won't care that much, but it crushes me to think that it's the only thing he's really ever asked of me and I won't even be able to do that much. 

LOOK AT THE KITTY!

PocaHellHole

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Colby is exactly the same in this one as the previous one, sans glasses.

Sassy.

So cute.

I love how no one was paying attention 'cept me n wifey.

Boarding in heels

Mastered it. Almost.

Me n the boys

Cute, right?

oh!

Also, something fun for the kiddies to know...

I may or may not have stepped in the wrong spot in the utility room and created a new, easy access door to the cellar.

Awesome, huh?

I know, I know

I've been terrible at updating this blog for the last...well, since I found Tumblr (shameless promotion).
Here's all that has been going on with me in the last few months:

I actually started dating that boy who moved to Boise...and broke up with him about a week later. Over the phone. Classy, I know, but Facebook chat just wasn't cutting it for me.

Back to work.
Back to Boise a week later to pick Andrew up from the airport! I seriously love that boy!
...then More work.
I went to Salt Lake on a whim and met a few new boys...had a, shall we say, magical time with one of them. (I'm going out with him tomorrow. Holla!)

NO MORE WORK!
I finally had enough and just quit! Actually, I gave my two weeks notice, and then ended up working like 4 more days. But that's okay, I now have money to pay my phone bill.

Allison and I went to Pocatello and played with two cute boys all weekend. It was awesome! (Pics to follow) We went to the bodies exhibit in the museum in Idaho Falls. I've never been so excited in the name of science! Amazing! We had tour guide Garret there to, not only give us hints and tidbits about the exhibits, but also share my intense LOVE and admiration for the human body. My excitement was comparable to that of seeing the lights on Temple Square at Christmas time. Also, like a kid in a candy store.

Had a GDO with the family in Boise...got a few skirts for the mish...Andrew just "randomly" showed up, and I had Alli with me still so pretty much we just hung out while my sisters and mom did their thing. Had lunch at Tucano's. There are some pretty cute boys who work there...I'm totally going back.

Where I'm at now: I moved back to Juniper Tuesday. It hasn't been too bad...I've mostly been reading my scriptures in my down time. I should be doing that right now, actually. If I'm going to finish before I leave in 19 days.

19 days?!
Holy crap.
That's soon.
Panic.
AH!

Got my flu shot. Never had one before, and only had the flu once. If I get the flu this year, I'm totally blaming it on the shot and calling it a hoax.

Also, I got my recommend! I'm temple ready! I'm going on Wednesday at 6pm with my mom and dad, my bishop and his wife, and my best friend and Wifey, Celia. AH! Commitment! This is either going to make me or break me. I'm the most fickle person I know. I wouldn't be surprised if I backed out right now. Or, actually, like 2 minutes before I'm supposed to go garment shopping.

It's not just a new point in my life, it's a whole new lifestyle! I'm committing to the thing I hate most, and that's change!

Excuse me while I go have an anxiety attack now...